Lack of blogging?
Yep, that's me.
This past week-and-a-bit have been challenging for us around here.
We've been getting some help from a family member to whip our finances into shape.....and there's been a lot of whipping going on, as well as a lot of tears, frustration, feeling completely overwhelmed.
We've had to make some serious and hard decisions - but what I am learning, is where there is much hardship and many trials, there is also much grace, and many provisions.
We were trying to get until the next paycheck and spend as little as possible, which meant that our cupboards were, well, they would have given Old Mother Hubbard a run for her money.
We were trying to make it work, but not having a variety of rations to feed a girlfriend and her kids during a Friday play date was hard. But I have great (amazing, incredible, supportive, honest, true, real, awesome) friends, and she was more than happy to bring along some food to contribute to lunch. When she showed up, it wasn't with a couple of things for the kids to eat, but with almost a dozen bags of groceries, for me.
I didn't know how to say thank you.
She mentioned she didn't grab any chicken, that she had thought of it, but didn't.
Then I cried some more, because the day before another girlfriend called to tell me after praying about it, felt led to give us a box of chicken.
Did I need a reminder that God cares that I need chicken.
That that story is one of many I could tell, just in the last week, of God pouring out provisions.
It is incredible.
I never considered myself a prideful person, but allowing myself permission to receive is hard. Much harder than I thought it would be.
Then I thought about the gift of salvation. A gift that is free and not only free but that I have done nothing to earn and can do nothing to pay it back. And how I just have to unfold my arms, open my hands and lift my face and say "Yes".
I have to allow my pride and desire to be good enough fall away and believe how much I am loved and with how much grace that gift is given.
So pardon my absence - I've been spending all of my computer time combing over the financials, planning and checking and double checking everything.
God is good - and I don't say that lightly.
He's provided extra work on Saturdays for my husband and the prospect of some at home work for me.
Blessed be His name.