{ Bearing My Soul }

Ahhhh. . . .where to start.

If I am to be honest, I have been dreading this post for a long time now. I have, more than once, come thisclose to canning everything; the name and mostly the notion that I may actually have a gift that is to be put to a higher use. The Bible tells me in John 10:10 that "The thief comes only to steal, kill and destroy" and then "I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full". See, I have this little dream and to write this for all to see is terrifying for me.
I want to do photography.

There, I said it....but here's the thing. Over the past week or so that I have been mulling around the idea of becoming a little more "official" with a name and a new blog that "thief" has been working overtime on my mind; stealing my confidence, killing my motivation and destroying that small voice inside that's trying to tell me I can do this. I've been relentlessly comparing myself and convincing myself that my camera isn't fancy enough and a free blog is a sad excuse for a website, my editing program isn't high-tech, my laptop is old and that no one in their right mind would actually pay me to be responsible for their special memories. Then I am reminded of this parable in the New Testament about three servants whose master left town and entrusted them each with differing amounts of money. Two of the servants put their money to work and by the time the master returned they had both had made back double what they had been given. The master was so pleased with these two servants and said to them "Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share in your master's happiness!". However, the third servant got scared and was worried about failing the master so he buried his money in the ground and only gave back what he was given. The master called him "wicked and lazy" and took his money away and gave it to one of the other servants. I am that servant....feeling undeserving of the gift I've been given, having no confidence in my ability to do something with it and unwilling to recognize that I could do something with it. I'm running scared of failure, of letting myself, my would-be-clients, and mostly God, down. I'm constantly going flipping through my pictures trying to convince myself that I'm even moderately good at taking pictures. I know there are a few professional photographers that read my blog and fear I'm giving myself too much credit and that they will all be snickering as they read this because I have no training or schooling.

I have been desperately seeking God in prayer for his guidance and completely releasing this whole thing to Him knowing full well that this will fail if Christ isn't the center.

All that being said, I've been keeping it underwraps that I am shooting my first wedding on Saturday followed by a baby shower on Sunday and mom and baby session sometime in the next few weeks. I couldn't be more scared but I know that these opportunities are God opening doors and providing for our family.

So......getting to the real reason for this post! I've come up with a name and have started designing a new blog (to be revealed later) but what I need you for is to help me with a logo. I managed to narrow it down to six fonts that I like and I want YOU to vote and help me pick one. I may do another voting post once a font is chosen to get your thoughts on another simple design idea but we'll see.

I get an average of 50 hits a day on this blog and never more than 10 comments on a post so I am calling on the other 40......if you've never left a comment, make this the one time that you do! Be anonymous if you'd like but please take the time and give me your opinion....just scroll to the bottom of this post and leave me comment telling me the number that corresponds to your favourite font.....

#1 - Candlemas

#2 - Cantabile
#3 - Daresiel

#4 - Euphorigenic #5 - Menrath Antiqua
#6 - A Yummy Apology

Now, you may be wondering what the word "nohea" means and what language it is. Once I get a font nailed down, I can finish putting together the new blog and I will go in to detail about that in my first post.

Here's thanking you all in advance for voting.....and also for listening to my heart. I am scared but my God is bigger than that and didn't create me with a spirit of fear and I know that through Him, and Him alone, all things are possible.

Happy Tuesday!